I think I have a permanent pair of rose-colored glasses attached to my face. I'm always optimistic about everything. I'm not even exaggerating when I say everything. I'm that girl who goes, "Let's go guys, let's win this!" when we're obviously losing.
It's not a bad thing, that's for sure. I've gone through life pretty smoothly because of my optimism. I've managed to keep my chin up and smile about everything and it's helped me through a lot of pretty tough situations. Being optimistic has probably helped in making good outcomes in my life. It's always worked for me, until recently that is.
Being optimistic has a downside. You always hope, wish, wait, expect for something good to come out of everything. When it does, it's awesome. When it doesn't, the problem begins. When you're so positive about something working out, it really sucks seeing it fall to shit.
This is where I realize that there's a thin line between positivity and stupidity. It's one thing to hope for something good to come out of a situation, it's another thing to keep hanging on to the idea of a happy ending when it clearly won't happen.
I'd like to think that most of the time, I really am just positive about things. But in recent experiences, I've just been plain stupid.
I was talking to my friend today and he helped me see how much of an idiot I've been. This whole time I thought that everything has been going my way when in reality, it hasn't. The eyes see what the heart wants, I guess. It's time to start using my brain more.
Funny how people consider me a pretty smart person when I can be so dumb about the simplest things.
Of course it's 3:30 AM,
Louise
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